What has been happening with me? I mean, I know whats been happening (slacking on workouts, eating horribly), but whats been really happening?
i weighed in at 253.4 this morning.
only 7 pounds away from where i started!!!
And its not like I havent been monitoring my weight. I've just watched it creep back up without taking serious action. Where did my motivation go? Why did i let this happen? I'm soooo mad I could cry. It took me months of sweat and determination to lose 22 pounds. and as of today, my net loss is 7 pounds.
I feel so big and bloated and above all, stupid. How did I gain back 15 pounds in a lil over a month. True, I'm premenstrual right now and a few of those pounds might not matter but I'm tired of using my monthly as an excuse when I've been reckless.
I don't even kno what else to really say at this point.
"I'm back on it today".....?
"I won't let this happen again"..........?
"I'm really gonna buckle down"..........?
I don't even know if I believe myself (or IN myself) anymore.